It is strange isn’t it? We have so many platforms to communicate through, yet we are lonelier than ever. We have do many people to talk to, yet we are unable to share our truest, deepest feelings.
Earlier, I felt like eating whenever I felt alone. While watching television or a movie or while reading a book, I wanted a snack I could chomp on. The kind of snack did not matter but I preferred sandwiches made from bread. They were oddly satisfying and I could eat as many as I wanted. Eating helped me to forget the feeling of not being attractive enough especially when people of my age were enjoying life in every possible way. At that time, food became my friend, temporarily helping me to feel better.
Therr is so much indirect pressure to be something. When you see people doing things on social media and having thousands of followers, it is natural to feel frustrated or inadequate. But that does not mean that you inflict self harm by eating mindlessly. You need to realize that everyone has their own challenges and they face them in their own way.
Even today, I have a few friends. Even today I feel lonely. But now I have realized that its better to stay with this feeling and release it than to gorge on food. It doesn’t help because you end up feeling worse after a while especially when that food transforms into unwanted fat. Instead, I choose the path of creating something out of this emotion of loneliness. I write blogs or stories that make me feel better. Creating something good out of pain and negative emotions is oddly satisfying. It is truly alchemy. It does not matter who reads or appreciates my work. All that matters is that I have transmuted my own emotions into something more useful. Isn’t it?
My Fat Loss Journey 